And finally, the holidays have arrived.

Alot has happened since the last time I posted until now, and boy, was it hectic.

For one, I went to Sydney for 10 days, because of World Youth Day.
And damn, the experience ( and weather, WOOOHOOO ) was abso-bloody-lutely fantastic.
The people were fun, the crowds were fun, the portions were big but my stomach was bigger.
Brilliant.

When I came back, had to rush all my assignments, and there was barely enough time to breathe, but somehow, I managed to catch up with everyone, just like how I told my close friends that I'll be ok, but nevertheless they doubted ... and worried.
Well, at least some worried.

It's been really hectic.

I've done things I never thought I'd do, and yea.
I dunno whether to be proud of myself or not.

Now, finally, all the assignments are over and stuff, so that's a really huge burden off my chest, but little did I expect that one more would jump onto me immediately after I sat the first one down.

I really hope that things will work out the way I hope it will ...
But well. We'll never know till we do !

Ohh, and a surprise.
A bad one.
Never expected that to happen, but I guess it shows how weak humans are ...
In the end of the day, no matter how much you care or claim to,
you'll be looking out for yourself.

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Either that, or I'm just not worth dying for.
Not in a .. literal way of course.

I really don't know how to react towards that now.
Should I be angry ? Sad ? Disappointed ? Let it slide ?

I don't know. Really.
Never in my life did I expect it to happen.
If I said it out, it'd sound like I'm making a big fuss about it, but really now.
It really screwed my day bad.

Not only that day.
It screwed it all the way till now.
And I'm still feeling screwed.

Just really really don't know how to react towards it.

There's so much on my plate now, but I don't know how to react towards the individual problems.

Am I supposed to chuck it aside and pray for the best ?
Ignore till it's over ?
Let it slide and just get on with life ?
Fight ?

Problems ... solutions ... doubts in my heart.

Its weird how people say I'm so positive, yet when it comes to personal matters, I'm just so
unconfident about myself.

Just pray really hard that God's plan for me is in line with what I hope for in my future ...

So much to say, yet so little.
I guess this'll be all.

Take care ya :D
+~Peace~+
Wolffang scribbled at Sunday, August 31, 2008.